Tag: Charlie Vanderbee

  • Separation Anxiety

    Separation Anxiety

    depressed charlie, thandi returns to faerun, tbo offshoot


    Charlie could feel the gentle caress of Thandi’s love reaching for him. She was so gentle when it came to him. She would take his face in her hands and tell him that he mattered. That he made a difference.

    He treasured her above all else. He kept quiet about the extent of his affection for her. His love. His intense attachment. And quietly, very quietly, he thought of her as his.

    The journey took months. Years. And he couldn’t help doting on her. His feelings were secure in her hands, knowing that she distanced herself from most others just enough that they didn’t make advances. He was the only one who she cried into, the only one she vented her troubles to, the only one who could hold her.

    It took him time to realize that she started putting that distance between the two of them. Less nights sitting with her at the fire. Less time trading quiet confessions. Less time… period.

    He’d been such an idiot. He had believed the smiles and the laughs. She didn’t tell him she was leaving. He found out from everyone else. The day of.

    She hugged Pike as he wished her luck. She gripped Merre’s hands and they exchanged encouragement. Senet gave her food to leave with and a promise to cook if she ever returned. Tirel simply asked her to write.

    Charlie was baffled.

    “What’s going on? Where are you going?”

    Everyone’s faces. The pity as they realized that Thandi hadn’t told him, so he didn’t try to hold on. He wasn’t even supposed to be here.

    “Darling,” Thandi said quietly. “I have to go home.”

    “But I’m your home!”

    Her smile is sad. Her hand is on the handle of the door to the inn. Charlie’s face pales and he opens his mouth to protest.

    “Goodbye, Charlie.”

    The door opens and shuts. He runs to the door, knowing what he’ll find, throwing it open anyway. She’s gone. He drops to his knees, in shock. It’s like his entire body is curling in on itself.

    Charlie shatters. No one knows what to do, unused to him expressing something so… real. And him. He knows the only thing that can possibly help him comes in the form of two warm hands on his cheeks and her voice reminding him that everything is okay. He’s such a fool.

  • Cookie

    Cookie

    fluff, drabble


    Thandi sits and studies, idly eating cookies. When she focuses, the cookie hangs from her lips, as if completely forgotten.

    Charlie finds it absolutely adorable.

    When he approaches, he teases. “Might I have a cookie, dearest?”

    “Mmhmm.” Thandi’s focus is absolute. Charlie smiles to himself and leans down, takes the cookie hanging from her lips between his teeth. She stares, gaping, blush forming on her cheeks. The crooked smile as Charlie turns away, hips swaying ever so slightly, oh… something about it lights her up.

    She watches him go. The view isn’t bad.

  • Pneumonia

    Pneumonia

    sick charlie, fluff, tbo offshoot


    Charlie coughs, bleary-eyed and sweating from fever. He flips through a grimoire, cross referencing it with older druidic scripts. Vitani had loaned him books on his particular brand of magic, and so long as he kept them in Thandi’s room, he could use them as he pleased.

    The combination of studying and Thandi pretty much made him a permanent guest in the little pocket dimension. Sometimes she just left him there as he studied, for once barely noticing when she came or went. It was nice to see him focus.

    Well, usually. Winter was taking a toll on him, and he was supposed to rest in her room while the party continued their trek to the next town. The man can’t stand to be idle for long, with exception to summertime naps.

    So, when Thandi walks from the inn, she gasps in outrage. “Charlie Vanderbee! What are you doing?

    “Ah,” he wheezes. “Just. Studying.”

    “You’re supposed to be resting!”

    “I am!”

    “Charlie. Come now. If you were your own patient…”

    He grumbles his reluctant agreement. “…fine. I couldn’t sleep. The… the ceiling freaks me out. Still. I can’t get used to it.”

    “Oh, darling. Me neither. Come along, now—”

    “It just feels like something is going to come out of the… void.” She sees him stare upwards, unsettled, and reaches out to take his hand. Gods! He’s still burning up!

    “I’ve used this room for a long time, Charlie. It’s safe, I promise.

    “Hmmm. I still think that you should stay with me…”

    Thandi laughs it off. He’s a little off from his fever. She lays him down in her bed and pulls the blanket up for him. Quickly, she wipes his face and neck, leaves the rag there to cool him, and he stares at her.

    “Thandi. I really would like to…”

    “Why don’t I read to you, darling?”

    His heart jumps as high as his eyebrows do. There’s a grin sneaking onto his face, pulling his mouth to one side. That’s a yes if Thandi ever seen one!

    She pulls a book out of her nightstand, and as she passes him to regain her seat, she feels a tug on her dress. Charlie’s eyes are wide. “Thandi dearest,” he breathes. “Please? Come closer? So I can…”

    Thandi gives him a small, sad smile. Hopefully Vitani approves. She moves her seat closer, within Charlie’s reach, and opens her book. His hand grasps a small amount of fabric at her knee, and his eyes are already drifting shut.

    She reads. She reads splendidly. Every character has a voice, and her delivery is theatrical. Award-winning, even. At least, she’s sure that Charlie would say so, judging by the smile on his face. She leans forward and brushes his hair back.

    “My darling…” She can’t seem to help the feelings that bubble out of her now. If only she could kiss him like this, pneumonia and all.

    “Thandi…”

    The smile on her face has no equal.

  • Collared

    Collared

    werewolf!charlie, modern (lab)


    Thandi tugs the collar onto Milo, smiling  to herself. The wolfdog wags his tail up at her before standing on his hind legs to lick her face.

    “Milo!! Milo, you silly boy, get down, darling!” She rubs his cheeks affectionately, kissing his forehead as he happily presses into her. Milo is excitable, half wild, but incredibly loyal to her. She got him last year, when she moved out to the edge of town. He wandered into her yard, injured, limping, whining. And she had taken care of him.

    Ever since then, he came back every day, slept in her bed, kept her company. It was time that she put a collar on him! He belonged to the forest, but without a collar, people might mistake him for a dangerous animal. Which he isn’t! He’s a gentle giant!

    She gives him a big hug and laughs when he wiggles into her. A gentle, loving, happy wolfdog.

    “So, guess what Dr. Vanderbee did today? He yelled at one of the interns and they started to cry. And then!! And then, he fell asleep during lunch when he promised he would eat with me. I swear, I think he’s losing weight.”

    Milo whines at her. She pets him fondly and kisses into his fluffy cheeks, prompting him to growl in that funny way he does. She had been frightened by the growl at first, but there was a certain note to it that she started to hear when they got more acquainted. A squeaky whine, a pant, a wiggling of his furry self into her arms. A love growl, she called it.

    Charlie scents her in the lab, and he’s excited. There’s a nearly unrestrainable urge to bound up to her and bury his face into her stomach and lick her face all over. He shoves it down. Deep, deep down. The familiar sound of her steps in the hallway has him absolutely beside himself, but he hides it, and he hides it well. Or. He hopes he does.

    There she is, curly hair bobbing, jewelry glittering, wearing that personable but business-like expression. He remembers her going gooey over rubbing his stomach and oooh, it’s her, it’s her, she’s here, she’s here stop.

    “Early again, Dr. Kahsu.”

    “I’ll beat you someday, Charlie!” Aaah, he loves that. Say it again. No! His face remains stoic and he nods, acknowledging her.

    “Unlikely. I rent a room here nowadays.”

    “You can do that?!” Thandi covers her mouth in amazement. She’s so cute. Look at how she tilts her head. Look at that little smile. “Well, I suppose if anyone would manage it, it would be you! You live to work. Speaking of! Lunch, mister!”

    He bows his head. “I know. We’ll eat together today. Did you get—”

    “I did! You know, you don’t need to pay me to feed you. I’m doing it out of concern for you!”

    “I feel indebted to you. It’s nothing to me.” Charlie shrugs and she laughs, that cute, tinkly laugh. It makes him feel warm. He wishes that he got to stay in bed with her longer last night. But now he has a collar that he could take with him. It makes him feel like he really belongs with her. He doesn’t take it off until the very last minute anymore. “Enough talking. Let’s get to work.”

    “Let’s!”

    Weeks pass. She gets into work early and finds her colleague tugging on his coat, messing with his tie. “Dr. Vanderbee?”

    He turns, panic in his eyes. He’s not messing with his tie at all. He’s wearing a collar. Thandi’s eyes widen. Is that… some sort of fetish…? She didn’t need to know this about him! He unbuckles it quickly, face red, stowing it in his locker. The locker clatters shut and it’s silent for a moment. “Don’t. Say. A word.”

  • Hand Holding

    Hand Holding

    tbo offshoot, fluff


    Thandi holds her hand out to Charlie, smiling at him gently. He blinks down at her hand, then up at her. Does she…

    “Come on, Charlie! It’s all right.”

    He shakes her hand and Thandi bursts out laughing. “What? What is it? I did it correctly.”

    “Nooo! No, darling. Hold my hand!”

    “H-h-hold your hand?” Charlie reddens and looks at his palm and up to her. He could stand a handshake with her—he likes her touch, and it’s brief. Not overwhelming. Thandi sees him thinking it over and her laughter dies down. She leans forward and links pinkies with him, prompting him to gasp.

    “There. Is that… easier?”

    Charlie nods, angling his head away to hide a smile. There’s a feeling in him he can’t really name, and… he likes it. He loves it. Loves it? He swallows as they walk back to the camp, hands swinging between them. He loves…

  • Petting

    Petting

    tbo offshoot, fluff


    Thandi’s hands trace along the lines of scars on Charlie’s chest, pouting. He tilts his head in question as she looks up at him.

    “Why did you never heal these?”

    “Practice, most of them.”

    Practice? Darling, no!”

    Charlie blinks at her. His brow furrows as he tries to justify it. “You know. A doctor is only as good as his experience. And it’s good to see natural healing firsthand.”

    She pouts at him and he pinks.

    “It also gives you an excuse. To. Um. Touch… me.” His face reddens with every word, and Thandi’s hand drifts to the center of his chest, tracing the dip down and up. Charlie’s breath stutters, and he lets out a shaky breath. He loves when she sweeps her hands over him, petting him. “Mmmm…”

    “I’d touch you anyway, Charlie.”

    “You… you would?”

    Thandi’s gentle smile grows sly. “Does my kitty like being pet?”

    “Y-y-yes!!”

    She kisses his jaw, his neck, his collarbone, enjoying the noises he makes. He’s breathing hard. And then he panics and Thandi is squealing in the paws of a panther, purring as he licks her. “Charlie!” She laughs and he huffs as he purrs, a form of laughter she knows well. She buries her face into the velvety fur of his chest, squealing as he squeezes her with his forepaws.

    His purr is soothing. He’s strong and warm and she curls against him, yawning. His cold nose presses to her face for a moment before he gets comfortable. They fall asleep happy.

  • My Side of the Mountain

    My Side of the Mountain

    hook, regency, childhood


    Thandi is in the woods. Deep in the woods. Much further than she’s ever managed before. She lugs her suitcase with both hands, trying not to let herself get washed away by another round of tears.

    Her foot catches on a root and throws her forward, suitcase bursting with her things. Her wand, her spellbooks, her book-books, clothing, and a bag neatly folded up that she took from Vitani as she ran. There’s so much that Vitani would be disappointed in her in, so she added one more to the pile, thinking that the bag would be a big help. She’s too scared to use it, just yet, though.

    The wind bites through her thin coat and Thandi wishes she had opted for the thicker one that hung higher in the closet, but…the tears start to spill and she curls in on herself, crying with all her might. With no one around, she could finally just let it all out.

    A raven flaps down in front of her, head cocking to see her better. It hops closer, pokes at the bag of food tangled in her belongings. “Shoo!” she says. That food, she’s going to need it! “Shoo, bird!”

    Again, it cocks its head and then opens its beak. “Hi!”

    Thandi’s tears dribble to a halt and she peers closer to the raven. Is it magical?

    “Hi!” The raven hops onto her knee, angling to and fro. It allows Thandi to stroke its beak and head, eyes closing in enjoyment. Then it pops up and utters another “Hi!” before flapping into the forest. Alone again.

    Or, she thought as much, but she hears a quiet rustling in the brush. She sees a boy’s face peer from the bracken. It disappears into shadow again for a moment before he emerges from the brush, the raven on his shoulder. The raven croaks and the boy looks down at Thandi, considering.

    She takes the chance to look him over. Everything he has is handmade, but for the boots on his feet. The boots, however, have taut leather strips in place of laces, and he’s wearing a leather coat stuffed with fur. It looks warm. His hair is a little shaggy. Is he… a feral child?

    “What are you doing in my woods?” His voice is coarse, quiet, as if he hasn’t spoken in a while.

    “I. I’m running away!”

    “Looking like that? You’re going to die.” He tilts his head, as if listening to the bird on his shoulder. “I guess we can help you.”

  • Lightening

    Lightening

    tbo offshoot, depressed Charlie


    Charlie sits up at the campfire. He’s gotten thinner lately. Thandi realizes she hasn’t seen him eat for days, and since Senet told him off and declared him banned from eating their cooking, there’s no way of knowing if he has eaten.

    She sits down next to him, beaming. Hoping her sunshine will rub off on him, get him to smile at her the way he always… the way he used to. There’s a sharp pain in her chest when she realizes that he’s not even looking vaguely in her direction.

    “Charlie! Have you eaten dinner yet?”

    “No.”

    “Oh! Let’s get y—”

    “I’m not in the mood, Thandi.”

    The pain deepens. Where is it coming from?

    “You need to eat, darling…”

    “I’m not your darling.”

    That’s… but he loves to be called darling. Thandi feels her eyes starting to burn and takes a breath. It’s okay. It’s fine.

    “Well, that aside, you still need to eat.”

    “I’m not your responsibility.”

    “You are as long as I have—” Thandi watches the bracelet loosen on her wrist. Charlie still doesn’t look at her. It slides off of her wrist, into her lap.

    “Sorry I forced you into it. I… realize now it wasn’t a wise decision. Sorry.”

    Thandi gathers it up into her hands, tries to encourage it to wrap around her again, but the life has gone out of it. Why does this hurt so much? It’s like she’s splitting in…

    Thandi swallows and wills herself not to cry. “All right. Good night, Charlie.”

  • Useless

    Useless

    tbo offshoot, depressed Charlie


    Ever since Midshear, Charlie has been in a gloom. He hasn’t really spoken much out of turn, though his tolerance for the party seems to have risen. He doesn’t try to push back the teasing anymore, and the look on his face actually puts an end to it.

    It’s plain to see him accepting the teasing as fact. He is useless. He is a coward. He isn’t good for anything, let alone protecting Thandi. He can barely even heal anyone. He’s only good for being used up. Why bother? Why bother…

    Thandi sees him slipping. His vest is loose, unbuttoned. His hair is a mess, drifting into his face. His sleeves are rolled down, and Thandi suspects that he’s covering bandages. He flinches even from her touch now, and he won’t say anything. Even to her.

    Thandi is aching just watching him. He’s sluggish, wincing in pain at every little thing. And… he won’t let her help. He turns away from her every time she tries. It’s like he’s drifting away. Even her bracelet hangs loosely off of her, clinging by habit and not by decision.

    Charlie cries sometimes.

    Thandi is trying so hard to get him comfortable again, but he really is just… useless to her. There’s nothing he could give her. Nothing he could offer. Even if she should deign to marry him, he’s got nothing to give but his body, which carries the risk of… children. With him. The useless him would produce only useless children. And who could love a useless child?

  • Self Treatment

    Self Treatment

    tbo canon


    Charlie sits in the inn room, snarling at everyone who tries to help him. “I can take care of myself. Get your filthy hands away from me.”

    “You’re injured, sir, and your hands, your arm, well—”

    “I’m ambidextrous. Get the hell out!

    The two doctors exchange looks. He wouldn’t even allow them to cut his shirt away from his wounds, and he’s clutching hard to a tattered mess of black fabric and a glittering gem. His shirt is rust from the blood seeping out.

    One last try. “Sir…”

    Fuck! Off!

    The two exit, going to tend to the next most injured person—Merre is still more than a little worn from their misadventure. Charlie locks the door and removes his shirt with a hiss, tossing it on the floor. There’s no point in even trying to save it. It’s better as blood rags. He might ask Thandi to help him clean it later.

    The tie and vest are spread out on the bed gently and he examines the damage. There’s no point in saving the tie, but the vest—if he’s not wearing the vest, then what makes his gift to Thandi special at all? It would be a random button from a vest lost. The fabric is already thin from his attempt to mend it after being splashed with acid. Droplets of blood drip down his arm as he sighs and passes his hand over the rips. They come back together, but it’s so thin now. He can almost see his hand through the fabric.

    Charlie straightens now, chest and arms throbbing from the pain. He can still feel the ghost of the acid that splashed over him, a subtle burning under his skin, like some of it still lingered despite the potion’s influence. He takes a breath and decides not to waste his magic here. He could use the practice, after all.

    The kits are laid out for him. He’s moving slowly.

    First, milk of the poppy. He’s going to need it to feel any kind of good later. A draught of that and it’ll kick in by the time he’s got his wounds cleaned out. The two doctors left him rags and hot water, at least, and he takes the time to clean thoroughly. With a stench like that, they’re probably ripe with bacteria. It makes him ill to think of the possibility of infection from those things and he grinds into the wounds with the rags, teeth grit.

    The pain is a relief, somehow. He can take care of it. He can handle this.

    There’s a quiet knock at his door, and Thandi’s voice. “Charlie…?”

    “Not now.”

    “Charlie, I want… I want to help—”

    “Go away.”

    He’s got to do this himself. The needle is threaded and he takes some rags to bite down on as he slowly, slowly stitches his wounds closed. The poppy is starting to kick in, and he’s feeling a little light headed, but this is all down to muscle memory now. The stitching speed picks up. It’s hard to do most of these one-handed, and harder to use the mirror to help, but he manages. It overlaps over the still-angry scar from Londlan, which is frustrating. And look at his face! The acid burn may have healed, for the most part, but his fucking facial hair. Gods.

    After he’s done stitching himself up, he gives himself a wash overall. That smell. That smell. Twice, twice now he’s been attacked by these things. It’s infuriating. His hair spills out around his face and he realizes that the sprout in his hair must have fallen out while he was unconscious. Whatever.

    Feeling clean is part of feeling well. He trims his sideburns, getting them to be even. He had liked the sort of wild look he had before, but he couldn’t go around with uneven muttonchops. Disgusting.

    Speaking of disgusting, his arm. That’s going to fester more than his shoulder. Again, Charlie paces, trying to rouse himself from the poppy enough to put together a poultice. He should have let Thandi in.

    But.

    If she sees him like this, she would… she would probably cry. She would probably beg him to use his magic to heal himself, and truly, that would be a waste. How could he count on himself to heal others if he can’t even manage his own wounds? It’s a crutch. He can’t count on magic being always there.

    Herbs are ground up, moistened, applied generously. It stings, but the sting is barely registering now. He’s in a daze as he cuts bandages from the bolt of cloth he bought, wrapping them around his neck, his chest, his arm. Tight, but not too tight. His head is getting cloudier. Perhaps he took too much. The tools are tidied up and put away. He puts on a fresh shirt, smoothing it. He looks at his trousers. Ech. The doctors brough clothes in, right? As a gift from the town?

    Charlie kicks off his shoes, his socks, and throws the pants into a pile with the ragged shirt from earlier. It’s hard to keep steady as he pulls on these new pants. They’re not quite so… comfortable. Or nice. Whatever. He’ll clean those up.

    The vest. The vest, where is it?

    He grabs it up off the bed, tosses the gem from his tie into his bag, and collapses into the bed. The vest. The vest, it’s. It’s wearable. It’ll be fine.

    He’s so tired.

    He closes his eyes, hair fanned out, shirt barely buttoned, and buttoned crookedly, at that, and he starts to drift. He should let Thandi know he’s fine. He should… blood, the smell of blood… he needs to… needs to…

    sleep.